Single Waiting

I found an entry from March where I was trying to write down the details of part of my trip. I'm glad I did because it puts me in that very location and it feels like I never even left. I was learning how to deal with being someone's guest, while also being apart of their lives, and pushing aside the feelings of discomfort. I felt like I was getting pulled in many directions and was losing a sense of what I was there for and kind of feeling pushed against a wall to please everyone else. "I figured it's a good thing I'm not dating anyone while I'm in Italy. While it's a romantic city/country, I know there will still be a ton of cool places we will get to experience together. And while I wish I were on this endeavour with someone I like and want to be with, I needed this short blip of personal independence. Even if I/my everyday habits are beginning to be coddled like an infant. Currently I'm sitting on a park bench, down a relatively secluded street ...

This is probably one we can all attest to. Misreading signals of a fella, and then building it up that it plays a more significant role in your life than it ought to. Yup. I did that in the span of a week. I met a guy at a friends birthday dinner. We hit it off, so I thought, and then went our merry ways. {Misinterpretation #1} . Come Sunday, I see him again and realize that it sounds like he's pining for my number. We talked a little on Sunday about where to eat (a group) and the restaurant we ended up at is one that he ended up going to even though he already had dinner. {Misreading #1} I get to the restaurant and he later walks in saying he had to honor his word because he said he would stop by. {Misreading #2} I email him my number to invite him to group activities that aren't last minute. He texts me back with a funny joke we picked up on Friday. Some things just aren't meant to be read into. It was a simple task, email number for purposes of calling/ texting one ...

Before you get hissy about my title, hear me out first . My week has been filled with some confusion and then some c l a r i t y , and then confusion again!!!! But with prayer, some guidance, advice, and council, I have tried to put my best foot forward and NOT over analyze the situation. In my head I never fantisized about meeting a prince of any kind, a knight in shining armor (which I used to call night and shining armor when I was little). Okay, maybe I thought ' my Wesley would come for me ' , but that was the only fictional one...... I mean c'mon, Cary Elwes {hubba hubba} I don't think I even considered the f a n c i e s t of them all, MR. RIGHT . Nope, the guys I've liked have been Mr. Right Now's. That's just me being an honest girl. I have had crushes on many guys, but had never dated any of them. What's that you say? Never dated ?! GASPPPPP !!! How have you functioned? I will tell you my secret that's not really a secret, but it did kee...

A lady's imagination is very rapid; it jumps from admiration to love, from love to matrimony in a moment. Jane Austen The bitter truth of Jane Austen, as much as one doesn't want to think that way about themselves, this statement is mostly true. We all want to be loved, to love, and to experience love in our lifetimes, but sometimes we sacrafice the importance of a healthy relationship for the feeling of being in lust and confusing it with love. The debate of the waiters vs the non waiters has been ongoing as long as I've been the appropriate age to consider dating, courting, or marriage. Some of the friends who have been in relationships tell me I'm missing out, and the waiting friends tell me that the wait is worth it in the end. I have conflicting feelings on both sides. While I feel like being in a relationship at this point in my life will be one of the best things that has happened to me, I don't f...