Single Waiting

How can you not believe in love ? I didn't say that. How can you not believe in true love? I didn't say that either. I question what the phrase " the One " has played in my life. After much consideration, reading, and observing the saying " the One ", I have slowly and begrudgingly put myself in the category of the girl that dreams with her head in the clouds of meeting Mr. Perfect, for me . He comes with no problems, no baggage, no scary past, no disapproving family, etc. I wasn't naive, I just prayed for someone who has overcome brokenness and their past. Alas, with a past comes some baggage , some hurt , not being fully healed , or having something being bandaged over a huge wound . I have my baggage, and I still struggle with opening up that baggage because sometimes I think it may be too much for someone to handle. If I am not giving them a chance to help me in growth, I'm essentially telling them I don't trust them. And trust me, I trust...

The start of June 2011. I told myself that I'm going to make this my month of fasting, praying, and seeking God. Clearly that's not just a once a month out of the year type thing, but for this particular reason, I feel as if God is doing something great right now in my life. If anyone knows me, at this point in my life, I'm a recent jobless grad relying on my parents for support financially and mentally, and looking for work day in and day out. And if I'm not looking for work the regular old fashioned foot to pavement way, I'm looking at alternative ways to get work. To go back to what I was saying, God is doing something great in my life. I still have yet to put my finger on it, but I'm changing, and I like the change I see in myself. I am being challenged spiritually and mentally and I like it. I am developing friendships in the most unforeseen ways and I like it. All of that to say that I have to do this. God wants me to go deeper and search His heart, find o...